My struggle with depression and bipolar symptoms began when I was a teen. For many years I was in and out of hospitals and rehabilitation facilities. I tried various medications and therapies, including Electroconvulsive Therapy. My bipolar symptoms would seem to improve for a while but the hopelessness and depression would always return. I didn’t have any friends, I was isolated and alone. I thought of suicide nearly every day. The pain was so great and I was so miserable that I eventually attempted suicide. It was then that I realized I needed help beyond the medications and therapy. After a partial hospitalization program, I searched for a support group that could assist me in coping with the symptoms of my mental illness. Luckily, I was referred to a member of the Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance (DBSA). Although I was apprehensive about attending my first group meeting and meeting new people, I knew it was a crucial step toward my recovery.
I was amazed when I attended DBSA for the first time, After reading the group guidelines, the meeting began with introductions and our account of our week, and we brought up topics we wanted to hear discussed. Then people shared their thoughts, feelings, and experiences relating to the topic. Before closing we shared what our goal to work on that week was. They read the closing statement to end the meeting. In that meeting, I discovered that others had had similar experiences to mine. It felt like I had found my home, a place where I truly belonged, and this realization brought me a sense of relief, knowing that I wasn’t alone in my struggles.
At DBSA, I was empowered by hearing others tell stories that mirrored my own. I felt like I finally had a voice, and that my story mattered. The members of the group were very welcoming and friendly, which made the environment even more comfortable for me. I even got the chance to reconnect with an old friend, which was a great bonus.
In the past, I had tried to join other groups, but I never felt like I could truly identify with others. However, at DBSA, it was different. I knew that this was the right place for me. The members are supportive, and we learn from one another. It was cathartic to talk openly and honestly without fear of judgment and shame. In a society where stigma and misunderstanding of mental illness are so prevalent, it is rare to have an open and honest conversation about our illness with others. This often leads to further isolation and self-loathing.
I am gaining a deeper understanding of myself and my mental health. The knowledge and information available are impressive, and the members are all very supportive, sharing their experiences and insights about what has worked for them. It is a truly collaborative environment where we can all learn from one another. I started making progress toward personal growth, but it was a slow and steady process that required me to use the information given to me and apply it to my life. Good mental health doesn’t just happen, it takes work. I worked on identifying negative beliefs that were based on years of dysfunctional thinking. I learned healthier ways to process my thoughts and emotions and by replacing old, destructive habits with healthier choices, I was able to achieve a balanced, more productive lifestyle.
I am incredibly grateful for the Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance (DBSA) because it saved my life. Participating in meetings and volunteering as a DBSA leader has given me a new passion and meaningful purpose in my life. I want to help others thrive despite living with this deadly illness. DBSA has saved my life, and I am proud to be living in wellness and sharing my story with others so that they may learn that wellness is possible and there is hope. Be Well and Make Each Day Awesome!!!
Be Well. Make Each Day Awesome!
